Sunday, January 30, 2005

Sick & tired....[why is that never tired and sick?]

Woke up at 2am - thirsty. Stumbled downstairs for drink of water. Back to bed.
Woke up at 4am - sweaty, dizzy, yikky-belly feeling. Wondering whether it will pass, or do I have to stumble to the bathroom.
4:03am - stumble to bathroom. Eventually yakking commences.
Back to bed at 5:47 am - eventually to sleep.
Feeling dozy and vaguely bleghy all day.

If I still feel this way tomorrow morning, I am NOT getting out of bed. I don't care how much work I have to do, I've been running at fast-forward for months. Maybe this is my system's way of saying "CUT IT OUT ALREADY!!!!"

Saturday, January 29, 2005

I'm an ISTJ, and yourself?

Okay, despite my very social day-to-day aspect, I'm more naturally an introvert. Seriously, I'm not sure I like people too much - they make me tired. Once upon a once, I did the Myers-Briggs personality testing thingy and came out an ISTJ. Which means I'm an introvert, with sensing, thinking, judging tendencies. Apparently only 10% of women fit into this category, which explains why I have more guy friends than anything else.

Why is this relevant? Because my husband left today around noon to spend the day with his buddies, and won't be home until late. I had a freakin' wonderful day by myself with naps and girl-movies, and red wine.

It is presently a fairly early 10:18pm, and I am slightly tipsy and ready for bed. Good day all around.

Night all. And remember, alone doesn't mean lonely.


Wednesday, January 26, 2005

If at first you don't succeed..

...apparently you can get a job with IBM. I mean seriously, how many tests do you have to fail to join this band of merry idiots? And they have the audacity to call themselves a "Business Solutions Group".

My ass.

More like, "Please tell me the nature of your problem so that I can ask repetitive and redundant questions until you attempt to stab your eye out with a pen" Group. Ix-nay on the olution-say.

Will you hold?

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

Yes, Virginia - Hammy has a blog...

To my yikesafriends:

Yes, I have a blog.
Here it is.
I set it up a couple of months ago and then experienced a spontaneous evaporation of this thing called "free time".
Apparently decided the other day that I needed someplace to write and remembered abandoned blog.
Welcome! Perhaps this will spare you all tedious posts about my life????


Sunday, January 23, 2005

Let it snow, let it snow......uh fuck that

Blizzard "warning". How does that account for the fact that it has been snowing since I got up this morning and contintues to snow now? I tell you, after last week, I'm not busting my ass to get to work tomorrow. Nosireebob.

It's been an oddly melancholy day. I've been doing some sorting and re-storing, and I keep running across pictures and notes from friends and family. A small piece of lined paper from my great-grandmother telling me how proud she is of me ( I think it was dated 1987 - I was 15). A card from my Nan signed with a happy-face and many x's and o's. A tear-stained letter from a friend as she moved to the other end of the country, when we'd spent 2 years establishing the friendship of a lifetime.

I was one of those priviledged kids who was surrounded by family and grandparents as I grew up. I know how lucky I was, but sometimes it's jarring when you realise how much you've actually lost.

I was trying to explain it to my husband over Christmas. Five or seven years ago, when everyone was still where they were supposed to be, I hated spending Christmas with his family. Because it wasn't my Christmas, and my Christmas was happening somewhere without me. But now, my Christmas doesn't exist anymore because the places and people are gone. And that's harder.

My heart is full of the people I've loved and I hold tight to their stories and their voices. It's just difficult to remember when a picture or a glimpse of handwriting takes your breath away.....